a larger love

The most Beautiful Pain I have ever felt... and so my life has been changed forever... someday I will know what is to be found in the ellipsis... In this hurting, I have found healing. May my heart grow stronger with every breath. May my love radiate so as to touch all the world. Bless Thank you for allowing me to share this. My heart is still breathing out. My tears are still running in my soul, and occasionally down my cheeks. I could have never imagined the bliss of this longing... as my heart is breaking so does it make room for a larger love to shine through.

The Most Beautiful Pain

Never before have I welcomed such pain.

Never has my heart been through so much agony and been so thankful.

I live for Love and so Love I receive.

And in this Love, the Love I've learned is so pure and so free.

There will be other men for you, and other women for me, said he.

Then we agreed there will always only be one we.

There will always only be one we.

We were only we in moments so few and far between.

Otherwise he would not have been able to leave.

And so begins our reprieve.

Yes, I know we will meet again.

In these bodies on the shores of his homeland.

Many years it may be.

Many years it may be.

Yes, I have faith in this we.

Ivolution

I had to do this alone.

I had to be left in the desert with no water to drink or bathe in to real-I-ze that I had known the direction of my path all along.

And thus I walked the path into my mothers hands.

Her fingers slowly massaging up the back of Her own crusted shores.

Her healing lifeblood holding power greater than I have ever known.

I am drawn to her.

I am drawn to help her heal.

And in turn she gives me strength and determination to move Forward all ways.

The pace of my walking along this path had been silent, and in that intermission...

I found Peace.

I found Love.

I found Hope.

I found Faith.

My Mama reached out her arms and spoke my name gently behind my ear,

"Lauren, come here..."

And I listened.

I listened with every cell of my physical being.

Every cell of my emotional being.

Every cell of my mental being.

And, every cell of my spiritual being.

My entire being listened and as my Mothers voice resonated throughout my being EVERY cell was changed.

IVOLUTION: When one chooses consciously to move Forward into a higher version of themselves as one. Uniting Divine Masculine with Divine Feminine. Uniting the I's.